The trick is to learn to keep your joy in the midst of it all.
Have I mentioned that I have tried and failed numerous times.
I have this awesome resolve...to find the beautiful in the ugly.
Then the ugly happens and I turn into a a quivering mess.
I am disgusted in how quickly I cave.
I have to turn this around...and you all know hind sight is ALWAYS, ALWAYS 50/50. So if I look back then I can see the beautiful in the bad and the ugly. I can see how that which was meant for harm was turned into a blessing.
So lets start with the UGLY. Ugly is when you are betrayed by people that you trusted. Ugly is when the betrayer tries to drag your name through the mud. Ugly is when you find that people you trusted were dishonest and only intent on "what is in it for me". Looking back on the ugly...in hindsight...I know that our organisation had people in it's structure that were not supposed to be there. Looking back I realize that the Lord was doing the shaking and the burning and was removing that which wasn't of Him. Looking back we realize that some of our controls were not in place and it had to be done to prove our integrity and honesty. We realize that it is in times of the ugly that the true colours come out. That you learn who are standing with you and who will keep you standing when you become weak.
Let's move on to the BAD. Bad is when stress levels get so high that sleep goes out the window and appetites are lost. Bad is when the old forgotten Fibromyalgia pain starts creeping up on you like a bad memory. Bad is when a loved one's blood pressure spikes to 160/100 and you know that although he appears to be weathering the storm, his body is telling a different story. Looking back on this we realize once again that it is the difficult things...the hard things that binds us together. It is the hard things that keep us on our knees. That keeps us humble before the Lord. That knowledge that we aren't in control...only He is.
Ahhh...that brings me to the GOOD. The good is that the Lord is in control of each and every situation in our life. The good is that we can be intimately involved in the lives of our children. The good is that He always provides...always heals...always loves. A reminder that God is always God...and that God is always good.
This little man turned two.
A little boy through and through
We are blessed.
I love this little freckle face.
We are blessed.
The Mission took occupation of the old Dutch Reform church....and we filled the building.
God is good...all the time.
...and for the first time ever...there was joyous singing and dancing in this beautiful building.
After all the drama we were able to take a week break at our favourite place.
...and enjoy the bounty our beautiful country provides.
Sunrise over the bay.
My attempt to capture the full moon before it went behind a cloud.
So in all things, the good, the bad and the ugly...we know that the Lord holds it all together. We know that which man intends for evil...God turns into blessings. We know that He works all things to the good of those who love Him.